July became my month of yes and I took a huge leap into something that I was not sure I was ready for. The internet is full of copycat ideas and recycled presentations so I’m sticking with what I know…I’mma just DO ME!
When I log into my social media and I see ads for “FREE” this and “FREE” that I’m slightly intrigued. I click, I enroll, I listen, then I receive countless emails. There are a few people that I pay close attention to because they consistently push the message of authenticity. So I’ll continue to be authentic and transparent in my approach because that’s all that I know how to do.
I had to gather my thoughts for this post because I have taken a lot in over these few weeks for summer break and I just wanted to be clear in what I was saying before I posted my thoughts about anything.
Business|I was obsessing about book ideas and then I was struck with one that I cannot abandon. I find it ironic that as fictitious characters speak to authors, my real life thought processes urge me to write in that discipline…EXPERIENCES from my classroom mixed with life lessons. Sure other educational experts focus on the needs of our students but I like the approach I’m taking with my writing. I’m focusing on ways to help teachers because honestly so many times in my career I felt alone and misunderstood.
So I’m turning that around to pour into my writing and helping other teachers as well on their academic journeys. Once I got my services in order I began to see how I help more teachers than others would have probably thought possible when I first began teaching. I had to BOSS UP just a little bit and be unafraid. For every one thing about me that was misunderstood, I’ve taken back control of my business and writing and I’m pushing the envelope.
I’ve stepped into my purpose and I knew that things would take time. I have even tapped into my entrepreneurial spirit and realized that in order to live the life that I want to live, I must pave my path and create in my own lane. Books and business are only the beginning and I’m staying the course because I have two precious boys (no matter how badly they drive me crazy) that are paying attention to my every move.
Career|This summer went by in a flash. It seems like we were just getting out in May, and we return tomorrow. I had the wonderful experience of attending the Model Schools Conference in June. I felt inspired to keep writing in my discipline of teacher mentorship and set a personal goal that I will be speaking at the conference in June 2020! I have to speak things into existence because I feel strongly about these next few years of teaching. Putting things into perspective, my oldest is going to be a Freshman in high school, and my baby boy is going to 7th grade. Entering my 11th year in the classroom, my career clock is ticking and I’m feeling like I just might be done anywhere between the next three to six years.
See I’m 3 1/2 years from 40 and with my new business venture (started my own health and wellness business) I’d like to create wealth in that, continue to write, speak~guest speak~facilitate~or host workshops in the future. I’m not a radical voice, but I’m dedicated to newer teachers because experience has taught me. Entering the field of education is political, but new teachers and I mean those that have been in the classroom less than three years need SUPPORT. I know I did which is why I wrote my first book.
I have been asked about leadership and if I have thought about transitioning into that level and to be honest…NO! After being passed over to become an academic coach because the other candidate “looked better on paper” I realized that maybe it was not for me. I was not deterred, but like I told another administrator, “You never know what someone is capable of doing until they are given the opportunity to show their leadership skills.” My candor is a gift and a curse and I am not compromising that for anyone. I’ll practice my delivery, but the reality is that people hear what they want to hear. When you think outside of the box like I do most of the time, you will face rejection and scrutiny from some, but encouragement and support from others.
In teaching I have had to adjust and not let my feelings be stronger than my mind. I’m not saying that I’m unemotional, I’ve just learned how to manage my feelings better while teaching. In a roundabout way, I’m desensitized and situations that would get me upset before, really don’t now going into this 11th year. The only thing I don’t take kindly to is anyone discrediting my teaching and attacking my career. That’s a big NO-NO in my book. But I’ve realized people don’t like my style because of how I disturb their approach. What happens in my classroom is just that! I’m in control of my content!
LOVE|I have not ventured into this topic in a while and it was with GREAT intention not too. And it’s not because I’ve been unhappy in love, I was just on hiatus from dating and putting all of my eggs in one basket. See I dated an older guy for a while. He was GOOD to me but he had some extra baggage that held him back from dating/getting to know someone/trusting ONE woman exclusively. He started off saying I’m only interested in getting to know you, then ALL of that changed. We began to see each other less frequently and it was hard at first because we SPENT a lot of time together initially. He’s still a decent guy but we are just FRIENDS and we both are okay with that…NO PRESSURE!
When I walked away from that, not exactly a clean walk away, but when I took a step back to focus on BETTERING ME and my VIBRATIONAL PATTERN, I saw the beauty is organic chemistry. There are familiar strangers all around, and you’d be surprised at who would treat you right if ever given the opportunity. People make a big deal about commitment and dating to the point of it being exhausting. I for a fact don’t look at each person I date as marriage material. I mean after a couple of dates you know if you want to be around someone and enjoy their company without the complications… I NEVER have been nor will I EVER be the, “So what are we doing girl?” LOL…
Then I met HIM and all of that has changed. Solidifying the FRIENDSHIP! I’m renewed in LOVE because I’ve always believed in the possibility of genuine and organic connections. Hmmm…when BAE said, “I pray for you, and I pray for US.” That changed the trajectory of EVERYTHING.
I’m fully aware that my business, career, and love won’t look like anyone else’s; I’m okay with that. I’m staying true to what I know and believe. So what is for me, is for me!