In the second quarter of 2018, I find that I am more centered and focused on my holistic existence. In a round about conversation with my mom this morning on my way to work I laid these words upon her ears, “If it does not feed my soul, I’m not interested.”
My mom is more than just the person I lean on most of the time, but she is truly my closest and most relied upon friend in my life. Every time I talk to her I get life just by her listening to me and pouring her love and encouragement into me. And after last week I am completely obsessed with a couple of things in my life as I work towards accomplishing these new goals and tasks.
So here’s a little of the back story before I focus on those three things. A teacher friend of mine down in Coastal Georgia purchased both of my books last week and left me with glowing reviews on her social media. I am forever grateful because it’s not that I didn’t think that I had the power to be influential, I just had to let my presence be felt through my blog. Being told, “Baby you gave me my fire and spark back!”, was right on time.
I was totally surprised when I checked my instagram (@tilyarealeyes) and realized that I had been tagged in a couple of post. My work being acknowledged by one of my peers and someone I’ve know for a long time has me pumped about other things that I want to venture out and do. So with that being said, now that it’s May here are the 3 things that I’m completely obsessing over in no particular order…
Thing 1: I have been toying with the idea of a fictional book and while the story line is clear in my head, I don’t want to rush it. I hear the characters speaking to me all of the time and I know that they cannot wait to continue telling their story. Just understand that Lauren, Black, Kira, and Zamir are a trip! However, the only reason this is a pressing matter for me is because I overthink every single thing I plan out for myself and really truly just want every thing to be perfect. Then I have to remind myself that the first draft does not have to be perfect, it just has to get done. There are some other pieces I’m working on simultaneously, but getting this fictional story out first is my priority. I’m sure that through discipline and time management I can get this story out mid summer… WOOSAH! No pressure, but I will get it done.
Thing 2: I have been pinning my life away on pinterest as I sort through my feelings about life, love, friendship, and business. It’s no secret that I like to have a cocktail or two and the liquor, beer, and partying industry is only flourishing. I want to learn how to be a bartender. For one, I think that it would be fun to learn how to do and secondly, I want to make extra cash on the side just to be honest. I have a vision about bar-tending in my mind, that just like with anything else I set out to do… I WANT TO BE GOOD AT IT! I’m also learning to that a lot of people are doing the same thing I’m doing— 1)perusing pinterest for ideas then 2) adding their own little twist to concoctions that basically have the same ingredients. What can I say—bar-tending, story telling, and then blogging about would add the spice I want to add to my blog.
Thing 3: I am completely obsessed with maintaining balance in my life. Ever since I decided to block out the noise and take inventory of myself, I’m much more at peace. Placing my energy and focus into self-caring my way through this year has me centered and not focusing on the many things that can occur in a day that are out of my control. I have taken charge of my life and plan to be my own hero when need be. I have to pour into myself more, encourage myself more, because as the strong person I am—I have neglected my peace of mind at times. If I want consistency in all areas of my life, then I have to be consistent with myself. Having balance in my life protects me from situations that are detrimental to my growth…I have to safeguard my heart, my intentions, and my conversations because my path in life thus far has been very enlightening and I just want to restore my well-being and be the best me that I know how to be. I’m learning to dig deeper, listen to my intuition and trust my process. I have never had an issue with self-love, but right now due to what I need in my life, what I’m allowing around me looks different.
As I continue to listen to my intuition more, I recognize what is real in my life. I ran from one of my strongest attributes for a while. I’m taking back my power each and every day and choosing me. I’m glad that the lessons in my life have helped me to arrive here at a place of gratefulness. I may be obsessing about things, but I’m focused and driven towards my personal victories and success.