*Very Personal but Much Needed Post For Myself*
On the year mark of my divorce *March 27th* I took to my FB and exposed my heart. It garnered almost a couple of hundred likes and I realized even more so that people like transparency and authenticity. I was not seeking to bash anyone. I was not making a comparison of my marriages, I was simply saying that this is where I am at in this stage of my life.
I brand myself as a writer daily. I share my thoughts. I rethink moments of my past and reflect on the good and the bad. I recognize my strength that I am often reminded of by other people and I grow stronger.
But every now and then there is someone on the sideline pressed by my life and try to find reasons to dig into it which only makes me go deeper into who I am. The questions begin to rise and I find myself here being an open book due to inquiry.
“Who is she to you?”
“Why don’t she write about love anymore?”
“Do you still talk to her?”
“Are you involved with her?”
“Where did she come from?”
“Why is she in your life?”
“What makes you tick?”
“Why are you so inspired?”
“Who is she trying to be?”
“Who is she trying to fool?”
“Why does she think she’s so important?”
That list could go on for days but my only question back and I have to say thanks to Cardi B. for this one, but
WHY DOES MY LIFE UPSET YOUR WHOLE CHEST?
All I want to do is produce dope content, write books, and expand my reach. My education and work experience will only take me so far within the realm of doing things the right way. However, at times there is a need to be unorthodox and draw attention because I’m letting you know I’m real.
A while ago on my blog I talked about people trying to use your life against you. Well yes there was this one time way back in 2009 I got arrested and spent one night in jail. That mugshot is deplorable but after “Happy Hour” with my sorors to celebrate the end of my first year of teaching and then later on some live music, that was an EPIC night in my life. My arrest is no secret, it’s a matter of public record which I went through the process of getting expunged. It has not hurt my career or serve as a shameful moment. It serves as a teachable moment because I have never lost my shit again in such a way that it would be detrimental to my career.
I have written about religion, relationships, love, teaching, and anything that moves me at the moment. I’ve experimented with my blog to see what engages my audience and every time I am completely uncensored I get an out pour of support to “Keep Doing Me”.
I’m a topic of discussion often because people wonder how I do it. I face it! I face all of it! That’s how I do it. There’s no secret to winning at life you just have to keep living.
So to answer the questions… I am who I am unapologetically. I have connections with people that transcend superficial attachments because I’m unafraid to live out loud. My living out loud may be different and difficult for people to understand and the love people give me is not to be understood by anyone but me.
So yes in this next quarter of 2018 I plan to be in your chest! I’m allowed to switch up my style and approach whenever I choose. I don’t have to write about love to know that I am loved and I don’t have to defend who I am.
My blog and your interest speaks for itself.
I am LaTilya Rashon continuing to Live, Reflect, Write, and Learn<3